relentless

as the days pass,
as the paperwork comes together,
as we get new photos of our beautiful girl,
there is a relentless gnawing in my gut.

a dull pain in my head,
continually.

i close my eyes,
to escape it..
not because i don't want it,
but rather, there are times when i just need a break

it doesn't come.
my dreams are filled with her.

her hair
her feet
her lips

i have such a relentless desire to know my daughter
every ounce of me is pursuing her

every single ounce

i suspect it is a tiny glimpse of how i am pursued