spelling sentences from micah...

found this is in micah's backpack this morning..

i wish that my new sister is going to be here soon.
me too, micah, me too.

sort of done...

well, we finished up our last meeting with our social worker last night.
now we just have to wait for her to write everything up...

and then, then i think i am a bit lost.
i wish i had someone here, to say, okay... now send this, now mail this, now give this to them.. etc. on a daily basis.

our agency recommends that you don't send in your I-600 until you have a completed home study.. but why? it seems like other people send theirs in right away.

it is all so confusing.
and annoying.
and totally out of my comfort zone.

and all the while our daughter sits and waits to be known.
ugh.

and i almost forgot...

blender.

that was apparently the next item to break.

three down, one to go

the visit from the social worker went well.

she was here until 11pm.

but in the grand scheme of things..
she could be at my house every single night if she wanted to,
if it means bringing our daughter home.

the kids are getting excited.

asking all sorts of questions.
brody is impatient.
wants her here now.

i concur.

clean.

that would be the state of my home.

clean.

social worker coming tonight for the dreaded home visit...

all the windows open, doors open, fans going,
and no kids here.

but they will be soon.
and i am certain that my clean house will look nothing like it does right now,
when she shows up.

ugh.

the list

okay, so..
you know you are adopting when..
your dryer breaks,
your refrigerator breaks, and
your central vacuum breaks.

waiting for the next item.
car?
dishwasher?

i mean, seriously.

stop.

i need to stop going and looking at the waiting child page.
i just got through telling someone that i wasn't going to go look anymore.

but i did.

and now there are several faces that i cannot get out of my head.
i am not sure what to do with that.

i am not sure if it is good to have their faces
haunting me,
but what if they aren't?

are they on any one's mind?

home study

had our second home study on wednesday...
four hours later,
we left.

it was good,
and easy,
and another step closer
to meeting our daughter.

two things...

first,
the doctor visits for the children have begun.
isaiah and micah went today.

we found out that isaiah is not too fond of needles.
he turned grey.. and almost passed out.

second,
last night, brody, who is four, said to me:

mom, an orphan is someone who doesn't have a family.
me: yep.
brody: is the bigger girl that we are adopting an orphan?
me: yep.
brody: cool.

he walked away with a big smile on his face.
it is so amazing to me, that at four, he gets it..
even a little bit.